Somehow my computer has managed to contract a virus that does not allow me to upload photos to this and or my gallery site. In addition to that I can receive emails but not send them out, and I cannot create new email accounts outside of gmail, for instance hotmail, or yahoo...

just one more reason im getting a mac when I get home.

starting this for a daily update on my trip to Saratoga...

www.alexevers.blogspot.com

its looks way tighter than live journal... get into it

Tuesday... ( i guess it didnt post and was restored)

Against the therapist orders i played hockey tonight in our game... not being able to skate for a week and a half, combined with a grown ass man job made me play. I played pretty well for not being able to go 100 percent had a few assists, and shoulda scored two but whatever.

I leave for New York next thrusday to shoot for a little over a week... i cant wait, hopefully my stick blades will be in when i return.

Thursday 8.14.08

fuck my life...in the past 3 months...

i broke my knee tore the lcl
kidney stones
and tonight dislocated my right shoulder barely getting touched

whats next

Against the therapist orders i played hockey tonight in our game... not being able to skate for a week and a half, combined with a grown ass man job made me play. I played pretty well for not being able to go 100 percent had a few assists, and shoulda scored two but whatever.

I leave for New York next thrusday to shoot for a little over a week... i cant wait, hopefully my stick blades will be in when i return.

being an idiot i fell asleep at 7pm only to wake up at 12:15 thinking it was morning. I decided to start reading Lolita, which goes to prove the theory you cannot trust a person with two first names... Humbert Humbert.

Current Music: Conor Oberst - Get-Well-Cards

today i got...
therapy on my knee
sunburned at the beach
drunk... and then listened to old vinyl

who cares...

As Del Mar approaches i seem to get more and more depressed. This time each year I pack up and head down for 7 weeks to live alone and go to the track everyday and shoot pictures. This year i will not be there. Which makes me ponder, is it better to go out on a limb and fail, or just play it safe? This year has been super rough... The death of a good friend, being suspended from photographing the races, breaking my knee. When i get bummed out i generally direct all of my attention to one thing. When I broke up with Claire, I focused everything into photography. When i was suspended i just started skating everyday. Aside from when im shooting playing hockey is the only other time that i forget about everything else thats going on. Now that i have neither of these things i just feel lost.

I guess this was brought on by browsing images in horsephotos and seeing multiple photographers bitting on my style... it makes me fucking sick to see it. Not to be cocky, but the fact that i have this talent and skill and i cannot use it...

i deffinately miss my grandfather, and brandon...

So I guess this year, the only view of the races will be from here...

I walked today and was able to do 20 leg lifts on my own tonight... Sitting there trying for two day and being unable to lift my leg was the most frusrating thing. Tonight i was watching the game, and was doing some of my rehab excercises and i was able to do it a little then i finally got it going. Then i was able to walk around a bit without help or the use of crutches... it felt soo good to be able to use my leg on my own, tomorrow hopefully i can do a bit more.

Dont know what to say...

Got banned from photographing horse racing in Ca.

Grandmothers got Cancer

A best friend killed himself

I fucking crippled right now

Debt

I guess the good thing is its only may... it can only get better right?


<3

Current Music: Mountian Goats

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